Well guys,I'm totally rebel right now.
I'm an official fugitive from the medical centre.I'd escaped from the ward yesterday.
And now my half part of bodies is partially paralysed,I guess maybe it's the effect of the injections and well some adrenaline shocks via my escapes.....and some helps from painkillers too,i guess.
Damn,this is officially hurts. Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. (-___-')
Friday, June 25, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Confession.:D
I need someone,right now. Someone who can fulfill my empty heart. Someone so called lover. I wish for you to come soon. Being lonely is tough and hard,wish I can end it soon. Hmmmmmmmmmmm.
Monday, June 7, 2010
New Chapter
Currently staying in Shah Alam,Selangor.
New life,new journey,refreshed mind and no more heartbroken. :D
Life is about to start anyway. Cheers. :DDDDDD
New life,new journey,refreshed mind and no more heartbroken. :D
Life is about to start anyway. Cheers. :DDDDDD
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
AWAY
I'll be away and maybe will gone.Hence my bestfriend will take over and run my pages.To all friends,sorry for my wrongdoings,I wish you all the best in life..;)
Monday, March 1, 2010
Sweetest Goodbye
What can u do if you have an issues with your health?
And what will you do,when you were told that you only have a few months to breathe?
When you only have one chance to save yourself,will you take it when you know that the percentage rate of you to survive is just 50-50?
And what can u say when your dreams is not fulfilled?
When you know that every past mistakes can't be fixed,when you know that you'll never have the chance to be with her again.
What is your feelings when you know that you'll close your eyes without your loved one? When you know that you'll gone,do you hope she will attend your funeral?
To wish you the last sweetest goodbye?
And what will you do,when you were told that you only have a few months to breathe?
When you only have one chance to save yourself,will you take it when you know that the percentage rate of you to survive is just 50-50?
And what can u say when your dreams is not fulfilled?
When you know that every past mistakes can't be fixed,when you know that you'll never have the chance to be with her again.
What is your feelings when you know that you'll close your eyes without your loved one? When you know that you'll gone,do you hope she will attend your funeral?
To wish you the last sweetest goodbye?
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Life Bona Fides
Greetings,
The days go by and they will be years,and the years finally become our whole life.And if I review mine,let's take the previous things as the example,I may concludes that I were too depressed,didn't have fun and missing something.Yes,something really precious in life.
It is hard to accept this time,this very minutes as something of tremendous value has gone in my life.But the life must be go on because everything happened for a reason,and I believe the reason for everything happened is to brought an awareness to me about how immatured am I and how I should appreciate everything that I have.Everything is over but the life is just about to begin.There still a lot of things for me to achieve.
Somehow,I should try to reduce my depression and heartbroken,and yes I should change my attitude to a better one.Friends and families are really helpful to help me through this.They were very supportive and interacting amiably with them is a super stress reducer.Instead of my mind working overtime thinking and reminisce about her and all the memories,it is still occupied with thoughts of other things and other people.So there will be less mental capacity for depression.
Thus,I have to stop being a negative minded person and start to take a very positive thought on it,because there is here and now,much to appreciate.And there is life itself with friends,family and everything that is enjoyable for me.And I think it's worthful.
But the fact,I still love you,and all the memories...:(
The days go by and they will be years,and the years finally become our whole life.And if I review mine,let's take the previous things as the example,I may concludes that I were too depressed,didn't have fun and missing something.Yes,something really precious in life.
It is hard to accept this time,this very minutes as something of tremendous value has gone in my life.But the life must be go on because everything happened for a reason,and I believe the reason for everything happened is to brought an awareness to me about how immatured am I and how I should appreciate everything that I have.Everything is over but the life is just about to begin.There still a lot of things for me to achieve.
Somehow,I should try to reduce my depression and heartbroken,and yes I should change my attitude to a better one.Friends and families are really helpful to help me through this.They were very supportive and interacting amiably with them is a super stress reducer.Instead of my mind working overtime thinking and reminisce about her and all the memories,it is still occupied with thoughts of other things and other people.So there will be less mental capacity for depression.
Thus,I have to stop being a negative minded person and start to take a very positive thought on it,because there is here and now,much to appreciate.And there is life itself with friends,family and everything that is enjoyable for me.And I think it's worthful.
But the fact,I still love you,and all the memories...:(
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
The 12 Things
Random surveys;
If you could change sexs for the day, how would you spend it?
-having a face massage?
What is your dream car?
-aston martin DB9
If you could bitch slap one celeb, who would it be?
-Amy Winehouse
What one lesson from your childhood that stuck with you?
-A-B-C
You get an all expense paid trip to the plastic surgeon, what do you get?
-Fresh meats
What's the closest you've come to death?
-Losing her right now
If you had to sleep with a member of the same sex, who would it be?
-Why not? My sexual orientation is totally straight
What is the scariest thing someone has asked you to do in bed?
-I have no ideas
What's your favorite shower song?
-Too many
If you were the President for a day, what law would you make?
-Free broadway tickets
If you could live on a T.V. show, what it be and why?
-Chucks coz I'm a geek
Name the 1 band you love, but don't want anyone to know.
-Hoobastank
If you could change sexs for the day, how would you spend it?
-having a face massage?
What is your dream car?
-aston martin DB9
If you could bitch slap one celeb, who would it be?
-Amy Winehouse
What one lesson from your childhood that stuck with you?
-A-B-C
You get an all expense paid trip to the plastic surgeon, what do you get?
-Fresh meats
What's the closest you've come to death?
-Losing her right now
If you had to sleep with a member of the same sex, who would it be?
-Why not? My sexual orientation is totally straight
What is the scariest thing someone has asked you to do in bed?
-I have no ideas
What's your favorite shower song?
-Too many
If you were the President for a day, what law would you make?
-Free broadway tickets
If you could live on a T.V. show, what it be and why?
-Chucks coz I'm a geek
Name the 1 band you love, but don't want anyone to know.
-Hoobastank
Monday, February 22, 2010
Reminisce Acrimony and Sweetness
It is not always easy for the memories to fade.But,as we grow and learn,it is,more often than not,the better way to do things,to live life.It is sometimes difficult for us to see the qualities and the beauty that is stored in us.But yes for sure,the fascination can be explored,at least when we tried.
Somehow,to see the extraordinary in the ordinary,we have to create an awareness about the negative element in us.The problem is,not anyone has this kind of guilty feelings.Most of these people may thought that they were right and others don't.Well,let us drive out the egoes and the proudness and pray for the better attitude.
To be a fact,I'm one of this kind before.Maybe still but now I'm struggling to change.But sometimes my negative thought keep reminding me the old me,the darkside.I'm trying not to have that kind of thought but since I was broken,my brain is like separating into two,where there is 'two of me' fighting to decide for something.
I've been watching 'Marley and me' like 2 hours ago,and the story remind me to my 1st date with her.It's been a while but still the memories is here,deep in mind.The date was actually out of plan because of a 'tears drama' but still went well.I still remember everything,The Starbucks,Tgv,Old town,Parkson,Coffee Beans and Central...I miss it..I wish I can travel back and live in that moment but I know I couldn't...:(
And the worst part is I'm suffering.The past moment and the memories is actually trapped in my mind and my soul.It will keep running and running for eternity.But I never blame,because I believe it was a gift by God.Everything is happened for a reason.The acrimony and the sweetness is a life condiment.We should never doubt that.
Somehow,to see the extraordinary in the ordinary,we have to create an awareness about the negative element in us.The problem is,not anyone has this kind of guilty feelings.Most of these people may thought that they were right and others don't.Well,let us drive out the egoes and the proudness and pray for the better attitude.
To be a fact,I'm one of this kind before.Maybe still but now I'm struggling to change.But sometimes my negative thought keep reminding me the old me,the darkside.I'm trying not to have that kind of thought but since I was broken,my brain is like separating into two,where there is 'two of me' fighting to decide for something.
I've been watching 'Marley and me' like 2 hours ago,and the story remind me to my 1st date with her.It's been a while but still the memories is here,deep in mind.The date was actually out of plan because of a 'tears drama' but still went well.I still remember everything,The Starbucks,Tgv,Old town,Parkson,Coffee Beans and Central...I miss it..I wish I can travel back and live in that moment but I know I couldn't...:(
And the worst part is I'm suffering.The past moment and the memories is actually trapped in my mind and my soul.It will keep running and running for eternity.But I never blame,because I believe it was a gift by God.Everything is happened for a reason.The acrimony and the sweetness is a life condiment.We should never doubt that.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Lighthearted Moment
Hello readers,
My breakfast today was complimented with the background chatter of my cousin's wedding ceremonies,most of my relatives come to my house just now for the preparation and family gathering.The wedding will not be in here but some other places.
Talk about family gathering,I seemed to be catapulted back into my own childhood,where everything is just about to know something.The gathering was a weekly event when I was a little boy,every of us had a diner together every saturday.Now after my grandma passed away,the tradition seemed to fade.
Aaaaaahh I miss my childhood where everything is just about to have fun,no stress at all...:)
My breakfast today was complimented with the background chatter of my cousin's wedding ceremonies,most of my relatives come to my house just now for the preparation and family gathering.The wedding will not be in here but some other places.
Talk about family gathering,I seemed to be catapulted back into my own childhood,where everything is just about to know something.The gathering was a weekly event when I was a little boy,every of us had a diner together every saturday.Now after my grandma passed away,the tradition seemed to fade.
Aaaaaahh I miss my childhood where everything is just about to have fun,no stress at all...:)
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Jeremiad
The holiday doesn't make me feel better but worst.....
A light breeze blew across my face,as my feet were on the soft sandy beach.The soft breeze make me feel calm and better.But it just the outer me.Deep inside,the memories is still hunting for me,the beautiful vista doesn't fade my thought but keep myself busy attending the glimpse.
When I woke up in the morning,I thought about everything happened,the history of me and her.The thought remain itself incarcerate in my mind.Even when I close my eyes,it's never vanished.The worst part is it has become a nightmare to me.Thinking of what it was,I know everything is my fault.But the life trail will never-ending and there is no way i could explore to expiate my mistake.
I was very disappointed,I didn't think that this would actually end like this,but yeaah I've made a mistake,a very huge mistake.And yes it will keep hunting me,the history,the glimpse,the girl,the memories.
The values that I've learnt is think before doing something because no one,I mean absolutely no one can turn back time...:(
A light breeze blew across my face,as my feet were on the soft sandy beach.The soft breeze make me feel calm and better.But it just the outer me.Deep inside,the memories is still hunting for me,the beautiful vista doesn't fade my thought but keep myself busy attending the glimpse.
When I woke up in the morning,I thought about everything happened,the history of me and her.The thought remain itself incarcerate in my mind.Even when I close my eyes,it's never vanished.The worst part is it has become a nightmare to me.Thinking of what it was,I know everything is my fault.But the life trail will never-ending and there is no way i could explore to expiate my mistake.
I was very disappointed,I didn't think that this would actually end like this,but yeaah I've made a mistake,a very huge mistake.And yes it will keep hunting me,the history,the glimpse,the girl,the memories.
The values that I've learnt is think before doing something because no one,I mean absolutely no one can turn back time...:(
Friday, February 19, 2010
Massive Delirium
I'll be a legal driver starting by next month...
The licenses is 'on the way'...:)
Expecting a new car in my garage...:D
The licenses is 'on the way'...:)
Expecting a new car in my garage...:D
Demotion
Hello and greetings,
A friend of mine said that I should move on but when I delve myself,the decision to move on is not the best options.Life is hard but we should appreciate what we have still.Happy ending is what I've been dream for but there still a lot to guess,the denouement.
Either me or her,most of our thing done will affect the situation.And of course my privation is the main causes,I ruins everything,from a pristine situation to a chaos.The fact,we are completely close to each other during the relationships and now? What happened?
Guess what,I really can't accept her decision for not continuing our relationships,but I knw she wanted and expected the best for us.It's ok for me then as long as she can take me as her buddy/friends.The friendships is what we should treasure for because it is the only 'her' that left for me.
But having her back should really illuminate my dull life.Hoping and keep waiting is such a 'sweet' burden to be shouldered but I believe everything happened for a reasons.
And I believe there is still a HOPE.
The only matter is I have to fix and change my attitude,then the hope will come as a perfect denouement..;(
A friend of mine said that I should move on but when I delve myself,the decision to move on is not the best options.Life is hard but we should appreciate what we have still.Happy ending is what I've been dream for but there still a lot to guess,the denouement.
Either me or her,most of our thing done will affect the situation.And of course my privation is the main causes,I ruins everything,from a pristine situation to a chaos.The fact,we are completely close to each other during the relationships and now? What happened?
Guess what,I really can't accept her decision for not continuing our relationships,but I knw she wanted and expected the best for us.It's ok for me then as long as she can take me as her buddy/friends.The friendships is what we should treasure for because it is the only 'her' that left for me.
But having her back should really illuminate my dull life.Hoping and keep waiting is such a 'sweet' burden to be shouldered but I believe everything happened for a reasons.
And I believe there is still a HOPE.
The only matter is I have to fix and change my attitude,then the hope will come as a perfect denouement..;(
Broken by Lifehouse
The songs lyrics is meaningful and it fit my situation...
barely to breathe and still waiting for hope....:(
BROKEN BY LIFEHOUSE
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok
The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home
Bonjour
Do you have the constant feeling that your life is sucks after what you've done before? Do you wish you could somehow turns everything back around?
Maybe like travel back to the past and try to fix everything,I mean every single mistake that we've made.I've been through this feeling,currently still.
The worst part is I'm broken.There is a million reasons to be thought about but there is only one person that should takes the blames for,it is me,myself.
Every decision that I've made before was a terrible mistake,which gave me the sufferness and it seems to be everlasting.The every step made by myself has gave me the pain and heart attenuation.I should be very careful but it's too late for a change.The 'life' that I've lost will never ever comes back to me.
With one stupid and foolish sentences expression,I lost EVERYTHING.
Regret ? Yes I do regret,all the time.I keep myself thinking about the precious 'life' that I've lost.
And as a result,I'm miserable all the times.I lost my way,tears and pain is my life companion whenever I think about it.
Being just regretful isn't enough to help me win my 'life' back,the regret should came together with an attitude changes.The changes is a must but what about the hope that I'm waiting for? :(
The only way to avoid being miserable is not to have enough leisure to wonder the moment. To be straight,I just want to say that I always think about the precious moment that we've shared,every single moment.I'll treasure every of the sweet and delightful moment.It is the only way to show my appreciation to you since we both made our own ways.Every pictures of you/us will be delibrately remain in my heart.
I LOVE YOU...:(
Maybe like travel back to the past and try to fix everything,I mean every single mistake that we've made.I've been through this feeling,currently still.
The worst part is I'm broken.There is a million reasons to be thought about but there is only one person that should takes the blames for,it is me,myself.
Every decision that I've made before was a terrible mistake,which gave me the sufferness and it seems to be everlasting.The every step made by myself has gave me the pain and heart attenuation.I should be very careful but it's too late for a change.The 'life' that I've lost will never ever comes back to me.
With one stupid and foolish sentences expression,I lost EVERYTHING.
Regret ? Yes I do regret,all the time.I keep myself thinking about the precious 'life' that I've lost.
And as a result,I'm miserable all the times.I lost my way,tears and pain is my life companion whenever I think about it.
Being just regretful isn't enough to help me win my 'life' back,the regret should came together with an attitude changes.The changes is a must but what about the hope that I'm waiting for? :(
The only way to avoid being miserable is not to have enough leisure to wonder the moment. To be straight,I just want to say that I always think about the precious moment that we've shared,every single moment.I'll treasure every of the sweet and delightful moment.It is the only way to show my appreciation to you since we both made our own ways.Every pictures of you/us will be delibrately remain in my heart.
I LOVE YOU...:(
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